Today

So today I'm at 212!  I will TOTALLY take that considering that considering yesterday was a mess.  I THINK I was short on my water, I THINK I forgot to take my last set of drops and I KNOW I didn't finish all my protein on lunch.

On a great note today, I got my shakes in the mail yesterday so I will be starting those today!  I'm super excited for that because I can replace some meat w/ those!

I'm getting kind of nervous to be honest because its 13 days til the wedding and I have 12.1 lbs to go, so I REALLY need to get these lbs of to meat my goal.  With some of these days I've been having...I'm praying on this lol  I think tonight I'll do one of those god awful sounding cali kickers...

One good thing is I was able to wear a older pair of jeans yesterday and fit them comfortably all day.  Mini Ya :)

Tomorrow is gonna be a big one for me to get all my stuff in, I work 0700-1930, so 12 1/2 hrs.  So I'm taking lunch and dinner to work tomorrow.  Tuesday I work a regular shift but Wednesday again, I'm there all day, 0900-1930.  Makes for a hard time, but I'm taking the shakes.

Ok, I'm done for the day.  I've been CRAVING a cheat day, but NOT when I have such a goal in mind..

forgot to post these tuesday, still gross lol

Yaaaa for today!

So today I met my 2nd mini goal.  My first was to be under 220 which I did on the 23rd.  Today I am under 215.  Sooooooooooo 2 goals down!  Next is under 210.  I figure going on 5 lb goals is a good plan so I don't feel disappointed.  215 is still unacceptable, but I'm getting there.  Again, still major goal is 199.9 for July 13th, so I can't have any slip ups b/c I still have 14.1 lbs to go...


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One thing I have noticed, I sleep better.  Like right through the damn night.  I'm OUT and stay out.  And I'm up early, on my own account.  

Soooooooooo here we go.  Oh btw I added one more glass of water, so 11 yesterday and that tablespoon of apple cider was fucking horrible.  NEVER again.  I mean, ok I prolly will b/c of the loss I had but omfg. It was bad, I almost threw up.

Update

I've decided to make this snazzy little ticker thingy...and hopefully it'll inspire me lol

Right now I'm annoyed, I went up .2 today.  I didn't eat my fruit last night, I missed 1 or 2 (can't remember) cups of water.  Today I got everything plus 2 extra cups of water and I'm somehow going to stomach 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar.  I'm praying for 9 oz tomorrow.  I'll be under 215.  It's been a while that I've been there....

SOOOO many things in this past week I've wanted to eat and eat!!!  Maries!  Belgrades!  Bidingers...Ugh.  Praying for my good update tomorrow..

Praise Jesus lol

No ugh in this post honey!  I was begging for the under 220 weight and I got it today!  2.8 lbs down!  I'm at 218 now.  Again, the goal is to be under 200 at the wedding...wonder if that can happen...I'm going to the store today to get some beef!  Some STEAKS!  How excited am I? lol  Also, I'm done w the franks hot sauce chicken, good god.

Not much to report other than my 2.8 :)

So far

Feeling kinda blah today and yesterday.  I think I'm not mixing it up enough.  I started at my high at 230.  Today I'm at 220.8.  Ok with that, but I didn't lose any today, and only .8 yesterday.  I get that I'm only a week in, but still, I expected more.  I'm going to the store tonight to buy some different things as I'm wondering if I'm stalling myself by only eating a few thing.  Hard part is, there isn't a lot on the list I like.  I'm BEGGING for that .9 tomorrow to be UNDER 220.  Thinking on my lunch I'll eat for 15 mins and walk the other 15.  Or tonight after dinner.  

I'm super tired of going out to dinner, because I myself am not eating when we go.  Tonight we are going for Liz's fiances b-day and AGAIN I won't be eating.  I'm going to ask Chris to make something tonight for me so I can eat before we go.  It really sucks going and watching everyone eat.  Especially the people who eat and eat and NEVER gain anything.  I HATED going to Maries this week and seeing their AMAZING pizza and not eating it, or the breadsticks.  Ugh.

Also, I wonder if I'm eating too late and that is why I stalled.  Ugh.  I feel like that is all I've said this blog is UGH.  Hoping for a better tomorrow.  Especially since I SERIOUSLY thought today would be a GOOD day.  I also started a new headache med that has a side affect of weight loss and I guess it takes about a week to get in your system, so fingers crossed.  

'Til tomorrow....

Erin :/

Day 3

Today is day 3 for me, so I'm starting Phase 2.  I managed to put on 4.6 lbs for my loading days.  Which sucked for me because that puts me 4.4 lbs less than my highest weight.  I swore I wouldn't get to that weight but apparently I was close.  Starting loading at 225.4 and ended at 230. 

Today I'm having a apple for breakfast, 1/2 of a chicken breast with Franks hot sauce and some other spices that hubby added on it, and some celery for lunch.  Already started on my water, because over the last 2 days I've learned that if I drink too late in the day then I have to get up and pee at night like a old lady lol  I've taken my first set of drops for the day as well.

I think whats going to be hard for me is the weighing yourself every day thing, because when I did weight watchers they tell you NOT to weigh every day, only once a week.  Guess I will have to get used to it.  When I did WW I had to train myself NOT to do it, so I can go the other way as well.

I have high hopes for this and REALLY hope it works.  I only have to go until July 11th.  I did it this way because of the wedding coming up so I won't be starving myself for the rehearsal dinner or the actual wedding.  Soooooooooooo, here we go.  Let's see where we end up July 11th :)

First Day

Today I started my drops.  I have two days of "loading" and then I'm off on my way.  I'm hoping this blog will maybe help keep me accountable.  A friend of mine, Amanda, started her journey less than a year ago and has just had a huge breakthrough.  She has dropped 100 lbs.  ONE HUNDRED lbs.  I can't imagine.

A few things.  I'm loading today, but not hungry.  I've had a ice cream drum stick.  We are going to my parents in a while and I know I will eat there, but I will have to make myself eat more than usual.  I have drank one glass of water and I'm on my way to get another glass when I'm done with this.  Since this blog isn't for anyone's viewing as of now, its pretty much going to be...me.  More than likely complaining, bitching or hopefully being excited about my results. I have so many reasons to lose weight.

• To be healthier. 
• To look hot!
• I want to have a baby, but I need to be healthy before I do that...
• Were planning a vacation the end of September, so duh, I want to be hot.
• Brother is getting married in a month and I want to be UNDER 200 at the wedding.
• I'm tired of being the chubby blonde at work.
• I'm tired of being sore, aching, and unhappy.
• I want my sex drive back.
• I want to fit AMAZINGLY into Top Thrill Dragster.
• I want my husband to be in love with me.

Chris went Friday for his appt with the surgeon for his bypass, so I can't stay fat.  I can't.  I refuse to be the fat wife that he is stuck with.  I won't look horrible in the pictures next to him.  This is only 26 days.  I can do this.  I mean, hell 26 days ago I'm SURE I said "I should start today..." and look where I am.  No where.  So.  My note from my fat self, to my healthy, smaller self:

Erin, you got your shit together and you look amazing.  Don't be discouraged and stick with this!  You KNOW you CAN look hot, and I'm sure you do right now.  I, on the other hand, don't.  You looked so cute in the skirt in Jamaica, and deserve to wear it again!  Maybe you already are!??!  Don't fall back into your old habits.  You can't.  For Chris, for your babies that you want to have...Stay strong and keep with it!

Love, old fat Erin

And darling, just incase you forget...here are some pictures you JUST took...