Day 4 of my P3

I started at 183.8 after loading.
Day 1, 181.4
Day, 2 179.4
Day 3, 178,2

I'm ok w the smaller drops but I'd love bigger ones!

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200  Aug 9th
Under 195
Under 190
Under 185
Under 180
Second BIG Goal Under 175
Under 170
Round 3 goal 165

Day 1

So today is almost over and I have a headache.  I'm hopeful.  I started at 183.6.  Hoping for 165 at the end of this round.  Fingers crossed.

Guess I should update this...

Nothing really weight related to post...I've maintained since I got home from vacation.  BUT, I am starting another round!  I didn't think I would...but I am.  I was at 183, and yesterday and today are my loading days.  Looking forward to 165.  Hopeful :)  Tomorrow I will give my weight and measurements as well.  Off to eat more lol

not really weight related

Saw this on Pintrest and it was something I thought I'd do...

1.Weird things you do when you're alone?  Hmm weird?  I dance, sing and talk to my dogs and cats.  But I do that when people are around too, so I dunno how weird that is...

2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?  I'm still the same Erin, just smaller in weight.  Same job, better pay lol  Umm, same house, same car...Same husband :) and same sweet furballs.

3. What kind of person attracts you?  Tall boys with smart ass senses of humor apparently lol  Ones who love animals and kids, and ME.

4. What do you wear to bed?  Sweats.  Year around usually.

5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite/same sex.  Ones who think they are better than everyone.  Ones who talk about how horrible their husbands are one min and then how much they love them the next.  Opposite sex, not a lot really.  If they smell, and bad teeth but that's both genders.

6. The person you like/love and why.  Chris, he is my world.  He is my best friend, my love and my everything.

7. Your opinion on cheating on people.  It's horrible and ruins things.  Thankfully some of these things can be repaired.

8. Something you are currently worrying about.  Hm, just bills, like normal, but nothing too stressful really.

9. Your last kiss.  Chris, always.  Or, wait, one of the dogs maybe?

10. Your views on drugs and alcohol.  I mean, do whatever.  I drink socially, but not often.  I don't do drugs and won't.  If you want to, do it.

ok one more

Ok no weight loss update, BUT I tried on MULTIPLE pairs of size 14's today and they ALL fit!  Yaaaaaaaa  Just a small victory for me :)  That is all :)

i am horrible

Ugh.  I've been such a slacker.  Ok.  So after P3 started I tried to add in some things.  Oatmeal.  Nope, no go.  I gained.  Right away.  So, I've spent the last week working it back off.  I was at 186.8.  Gained 2 lbs.  Today I got back to 186.2.  Kinda pissed me off.  My goal NOW for vacation is 180.  I know there is NO way I'll hit 175.  So I'll be happy with 180.  PLUS that will be 50 lbs!  So, I have NO further update with my drops really.   We leave for vacation on the 21st...I can't wait!

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200  Aug 9th
Under 195
Under 190
Under 185 (hoping by the end of Monday or Tuesday!!!!)
Under 180
Second BIG VACATION GOAL:  175

Been a while!

So I'm a slacker lol  It's been like 11 days since I updated and I actually have TWO big updates!  First things first ALL I've been doing is working, NON STOP it feels like.  Chris has a follow up Monday and I'm going to it, so I'm excited to see where he is with his loss.  Wait, actually I have 3 updates!

One:  I'm down 40 lbs
Two:  I'm under 195
Three:  I'm actually under 190!

Whhhhhhhhhhhhat!?!?!?  189.4 today!  So I got to cross off TWO things below!  Below is the newest picture I have as well.

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200  Aug 9th
Under 195
Under 190
Under 185
Under 180
Second BIG VACATION GOAL:  175

Thank you Aunt Flow!

After a few days of minimal losses I got a 1.4 loss today and my period came.  It's been holding me back I think.  Amanda says it has probably been making me retain water and lord knows what else.  I'm HOPING for my next goal tomorrow, under 195...praying for it.  Eeeeeeeeeee!  I'd be so happy!  Oh!  Big announcement.  I fit in size 16's now.  Not a SNUG 18, not a should be in a 20.  A 16.  From AE.  I tried a pair on from Plato's Closet just for the hell of it, and I'll be damned, they fit!  Not tight at all!  And then!  Today I got a pair of 14's up, not buttoned, but UP.  Maybe for vacation.  Who knows.  We shall see, huh. I go back to the Dr the end of this month and he wants to run blood work, not really sure for what but I want to see where my levels all are because RedBrick at work did that thing June 14th, which was PERFECT b/c it was 2 days before I started all this.

Vacation is in 40 days.  I have ummm  196.2-175=21.2 lbs to go.  Eeeeeeeeeeee, I hope I get it!  If I was BELOW that I'd freak!  I THINK I was 170 when we got married.  To be that again...amazing.  But I'm not stopping there.  I really don't know if I going to do another round after vacation, but if I get good results this time, more than likely I will.  I just wish I could work out.  Maybe ONE more round.  Who knows, guess I'll see how much I gain on vacation.  I hope not much, b/c honestly I plan to eat pretty good down there.  I LIKE my healthy stuff now, the bad stuff didn't taste like what I remember it to.  I'll be glad to be able to eat guacamole down there if they have it!  I LOVE that shit lol  When we went to Mexico I ate it for ALL 3 meals usually.  Oh, also I have a new before and after.  This is start and then this last Saturday.

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200  Aug 9th
Under 195
Under 190
Under 185
Under 180
Second BIG VACATION GOAL:  175

Round 1 Stuff

Round One

June 16th Start Load

P1D1 225.4
226
230
224.2
221.6
220.8
220.8
218
216.6
215.6
215.8
214
213.1
212
213
213.4
210.6
210.2
210.6
209.8
208.2
208.2
207.4
206.6
207 END PHASE 2
207
206.6
207.8
207.6
206.8
205.2
205.2
204.4
205.8
205
204.4
203.2
203
202.6
202
201.6
201.2
200.4
200.6
200.8 END PHASE 3

Good Lord Jesus!

Praise Jesus! lol  Finally!  I got my 199!  Today when I weighed in I was at 199.2!  I got to 205 .4 on my loading days... Soooooooooooooooooo I get to redo my GOALS!  Actually, I'm just going to add to them :)

The last 2 days I lost 1.6 a piece.  So if I do that even 15 outta my 21 days I have left, I'll hit my 175...and I even dropped 7 lbs on my p3 last round.  Gahh...I'm gonna post my P2 and P3 from last time so I can see it...



Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200
Under 195
Under 190
Under 185
Under 180
Second BIG VACATION GOAL:  175

Loading

Ok so today was R2P1D2.  I hate loading lol  I was SO excited for it, but good GOD I'm glad it's over!  Well I could eat for 2 more hours but I will pass lol

Tomorrow I start Phase 2 again.  I'm hoping I drop ok.  I'm nervous b/c of how low I was eating on Phase 3 last time.  I REALLY want my 199.9.  GOD I WANT IT.  I hope I get it soon.

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200

Another small update

Hi hi!  Another happy update!  I'm at 201.6 today!  201.6!!!!  1.7 from my first BIG goal.  I know I wanted it before the wedding, and ya it sucks I didn't get it before then, but I don't know that it was a realistic goal.  Mehh, oh well, its coming!  I have til Saturday which is my first loading day.  I've been dropping about 4 or 6 oz a day.  I hope I drop more on my drops tho b/c honestly I'll be eating more on the drops than I have been lately.  Just not hungry and I'm fine w that lol

Chris started his new job today and gets off in 2 hours.  I slept in and went on a hr long walk, walked for 3 miles.  I got lost but thanks to my map on my cell phone I figured out where I was lol

Not too much to update today :)

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200

small update

Nothing really to update buuuuuuuuuut I did drop again.  I get that I shouldn't be...but I am.  I just have no appetite b/c of this headache medicine.  I'm at 203.2 as of this AM.  I REALLY want to get to 199.9 before I go back to my drops, but I dunno if I will PLUS when I load I'm sure I'll go back up over even if I do go down that low.

Chris seems to be paying more attention to me lately, and I'm not sure if its because I told him of my fear of him leaving me or what.  We seem to be getting along really well.  I was worried w us being off for almost 2 weeks that we would wanna kill each other lol  

He starts his new job Monday and I'm excited for him.  He won't get the option to leave early so that means FULL paychecks EVERY week!  Yaaaaa!  I will be asking for OT as well b/c he will be m-f and there is no point in me being home when he isn't and we are going on vacation the end of September.

I'm really worried about NOT losing once I go back on the drops because of not eating alot when I'm on P3, but I guess we will see.  I'm TRYING to eat more.  I had a shake today, and turkey roll-ups tonight for dinner w/ cheese stuffed in them.  I also got milk to put in my shakes to bump up my fat/calorie intake.

I can't get over the fact that I am 3.3 lbs from being UNDER 200 lbs.  I'm going to be so excited when that happens.  I may take a picture of the scale at that point lol  My P3 is supposed to end August 2nd so THAT is when I would LOVE to be at 199.9.

Chris has also dropped under 300, so proud of him :)

That's it for tonight!




Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200.

So, another goal...

I met my next goal!  Under 205.  Not sure if I will maintain it, but you can bet I'm going to try.  Chris had his surgery Wednesday and is already down 10 lbs.  Still terrified for us.  I'm hoping because we met umm normal, got thick, got married smaller, then got fat, now are getting smaller together, that we will be ok...

Today I had my left over pizza from last night that I made and I had a protein shake for dinner w some strawberries too.  Had 23 grams of protein in it.


Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200.

Gahh!

Ok so I'm a horrible slacker.

I'm now in P3.  I'm hovering at between 206.6 and 207.  I'm also going w Chris tomorrow for his Gastric Bypass surgery.  I feel like he is going to lose all this weight, and I am going to be this fat blob the rest of my life.  I tried looking on line about how to be supportive to your spouse when they have this done and it pretty much said there is a 65% divorce rate for people who have it done.  65%.  They say that the fat version of you settles for what you think you deserve and you "take what you can get", but when you lose weight you realize other people will want/need you so you leave that person you took just to "HAVE someone".  Great.  I guess all I can do is be supportive and try to lose the weight myself.  I don't know WHY I'm annoyed with what I've lost.  I mean it's 23 lbs!  I remember w/ WW and I lost I THINK 65 total and that was from...Ummm Feb tooooooo, I wanna say like May of the NEXT year.  And this is 23 in ONE month, so Erin, QUIT bitching.  I have my huge goal for vacation.  My goals still are the same.  And obviously still sitting still.


Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200.  Which I didn't meet for the wedding.  I didn't even meet the under 205.  I'd LOVE to get under the 205.  Maybe over the next few days b/c I'll be running around a lot.  I dunno, I know I'm not supposed to worry about losing right now bc I'm on P3.  

I keep saying I'm going to start walking tomorrow.  Then the next day.  Then the next. Then...you get it.  So ya.  I also want to get a bike, but I don't wanna spend more than 50.00.  Maybe payday, I dunno.  

Well, trying to make it a early night being that we have to be IN Cleveland at 6 am.  Yawn.  Off to bed soon I hope.  

Sunday Funday? Uh, no. I'm not doing anything today

Today I'm relaxing.  I'm not doing anything.  I slept in.  I had a good weigh in.  I was GONNA invite mom over, but that would involve me cleaning up and I have NO desire to do that so I may just go over there lol

Onnnnnnnnnnto the good stuff.  I'm now at 208.2!  Almost squeaked past 208 lol  I lost 1.6 so if I could do that again tomorrow I'd blow by 207.  Gahh.  I'm gonna make the same foods for today as I did yesterday and pray lol

The great thing was I really ENJOYED my food yesterday. I had a apple for "breakfast" in the early afternoon at work, came home for lunch, had a smoothie put my spinach in it, so there was my fruit, my veggie and my protein.  Then for dinner I had chicken chili and it had tomatoes in it and I had strawberries w stevia on it before bed.  I added cayenne pepper to the chili which last time I did not but also last time it was beef and not chicken so I dunno.

I'm super excited how this first round has gone down.  And I'm excited but nervous to start P3.

***EDIT***

Forgot to add these

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200 for the wedding

Happy 4th

Oooooooook!  So Today, were at 210.2.  Not amazingly thrilled with that, but obviously I'll take it.  I was REALLY hoping to be at 209.9 by now.  I think my problem is I need to remember its only been 2 1/2 weeks.  Not months.  So I need to be patient.  

So.  Goals.

Under 225
Under 220
Under 215
Under 210(hoping this will be tomooooooooooorrrow!)
Under 205
First BIG Goal:  Under 200 for the wedding

Then we move on to the next round of goals.  Mom, Chris and I are planning a vacation here in September so I REALLY SOOOOOO SOO SO badly want to be at 175 when we go.  That is September 21st.  The funny part is, my R2P3D21 will be the DAY before we leave for vacation, so, I wonder during that maintenance time if I can work a little harder at losing, since I KNOW I won't be going right back on the drops after my Phase 3 like I will this time.  I'll have to ask Amanda.  

I do have a new picture.

Today

So today I'm at 212!  I will TOTALLY take that considering that considering yesterday was a mess.  I THINK I was short on my water, I THINK I forgot to take my last set of drops and I KNOW I didn't finish all my protein on lunch.

On a great note today, I got my shakes in the mail yesterday so I will be starting those today!  I'm super excited for that because I can replace some meat w/ those!

I'm getting kind of nervous to be honest because its 13 days til the wedding and I have 12.1 lbs to go, so I REALLY need to get these lbs of to meat my goal.  With some of these days I've been having...I'm praying on this lol  I think tonight I'll do one of those god awful sounding cali kickers...

One good thing is I was able to wear a older pair of jeans yesterday and fit them comfortably all day.  Mini Ya :)

Tomorrow is gonna be a big one for me to get all my stuff in, I work 0700-1930, so 12 1/2 hrs.  So I'm taking lunch and dinner to work tomorrow.  Tuesday I work a regular shift but Wednesday again, I'm there all day, 0900-1930.  Makes for a hard time, but I'm taking the shakes.

Ok, I'm done for the day.  I've been CRAVING a cheat day, but NOT when I have such a goal in mind..

forgot to post these tuesday, still gross lol

Yaaaa for today!

So today I met my 2nd mini goal.  My first was to be under 220 which I did on the 23rd.  Today I am under 215.  Sooooooooooo 2 goals down!  Next is under 210.  I figure going on 5 lb goals is a good plan so I don't feel disappointed.  215 is still unacceptable, but I'm getting there.  Again, still major goal is 199.9 for July 13th, so I can't have any slip ups b/c I still have 14.1 lbs to go...


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One thing I have noticed, I sleep better.  Like right through the damn night.  I'm OUT and stay out.  And I'm up early, on my own account.  

Soooooooooo here we go.  Oh btw I added one more glass of water, so 11 yesterday and that tablespoon of apple cider was fucking horrible.  NEVER again.  I mean, ok I prolly will b/c of the loss I had but omfg. It was bad, I almost threw up.

Update

I've decided to make this snazzy little ticker thingy...and hopefully it'll inspire me lol

Right now I'm annoyed, I went up .2 today.  I didn't eat my fruit last night, I missed 1 or 2 (can't remember) cups of water.  Today I got everything plus 2 extra cups of water and I'm somehow going to stomach 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar.  I'm praying for 9 oz tomorrow.  I'll be under 215.  It's been a while that I've been there....

SOOOO many things in this past week I've wanted to eat and eat!!!  Maries!  Belgrades!  Bidingers...Ugh.  Praying for my good update tomorrow..

Praise Jesus lol

No ugh in this post honey!  I was begging for the under 220 weight and I got it today!  2.8 lbs down!  I'm at 218 now.  Again, the goal is to be under 200 at the wedding...wonder if that can happen...I'm going to the store today to get some beef!  Some STEAKS!  How excited am I? lol  Also, I'm done w the franks hot sauce chicken, good god.

Not much to report other than my 2.8 :)

So far

Feeling kinda blah today and yesterday.  I think I'm not mixing it up enough.  I started at my high at 230.  Today I'm at 220.8.  Ok with that, but I didn't lose any today, and only .8 yesterday.  I get that I'm only a week in, but still, I expected more.  I'm going to the store tonight to buy some different things as I'm wondering if I'm stalling myself by only eating a few thing.  Hard part is, there isn't a lot on the list I like.  I'm BEGGING for that .9 tomorrow to be UNDER 220.  Thinking on my lunch I'll eat for 15 mins and walk the other 15.  Or tonight after dinner.  

I'm super tired of going out to dinner, because I myself am not eating when we go.  Tonight we are going for Liz's fiances b-day and AGAIN I won't be eating.  I'm going to ask Chris to make something tonight for me so I can eat before we go.  It really sucks going and watching everyone eat.  Especially the people who eat and eat and NEVER gain anything.  I HATED going to Maries this week and seeing their AMAZING pizza and not eating it, or the breadsticks.  Ugh.

Also, I wonder if I'm eating too late and that is why I stalled.  Ugh.  I feel like that is all I've said this blog is UGH.  Hoping for a better tomorrow.  Especially since I SERIOUSLY thought today would be a GOOD day.  I also started a new headache med that has a side affect of weight loss and I guess it takes about a week to get in your system, so fingers crossed.  

'Til tomorrow....

Erin :/

Day 3

Today is day 3 for me, so I'm starting Phase 2.  I managed to put on 4.6 lbs for my loading days.  Which sucked for me because that puts me 4.4 lbs less than my highest weight.  I swore I wouldn't get to that weight but apparently I was close.  Starting loading at 225.4 and ended at 230. 

Today I'm having a apple for breakfast, 1/2 of a chicken breast with Franks hot sauce and some other spices that hubby added on it, and some celery for lunch.  Already started on my water, because over the last 2 days I've learned that if I drink too late in the day then I have to get up and pee at night like a old lady lol  I've taken my first set of drops for the day as well.

I think whats going to be hard for me is the weighing yourself every day thing, because when I did weight watchers they tell you NOT to weigh every day, only once a week.  Guess I will have to get used to it.  When I did WW I had to train myself NOT to do it, so I can go the other way as well.

I have high hopes for this and REALLY hope it works.  I only have to go until July 11th.  I did it this way because of the wedding coming up so I won't be starving myself for the rehearsal dinner or the actual wedding.  Soooooooooooo, here we go.  Let's see where we end up July 11th :)

First Day

Today I started my drops.  I have two days of "loading" and then I'm off on my way.  I'm hoping this blog will maybe help keep me accountable.  A friend of mine, Amanda, started her journey less than a year ago and has just had a huge breakthrough.  She has dropped 100 lbs.  ONE HUNDRED lbs.  I can't imagine.

A few things.  I'm loading today, but not hungry.  I've had a ice cream drum stick.  We are going to my parents in a while and I know I will eat there, but I will have to make myself eat more than usual.  I have drank one glass of water and I'm on my way to get another glass when I'm done with this.  Since this blog isn't for anyone's viewing as of now, its pretty much going to be...me.  More than likely complaining, bitching or hopefully being excited about my results. I have so many reasons to lose weight.

• To be healthier. 
• To look hot!
• I want to have a baby, but I need to be healthy before I do that...
• Were planning a vacation the end of September, so duh, I want to be hot.
• Brother is getting married in a month and I want to be UNDER 200 at the wedding.
• I'm tired of being the chubby blonde at work.
• I'm tired of being sore, aching, and unhappy.
• I want my sex drive back.
• I want to fit AMAZINGLY into Top Thrill Dragster.
• I want my husband to be in love with me.

Chris went Friday for his appt with the surgeon for his bypass, so I can't stay fat.  I can't.  I refuse to be the fat wife that he is stuck with.  I won't look horrible in the pictures next to him.  This is only 26 days.  I can do this.  I mean, hell 26 days ago I'm SURE I said "I should start today..." and look where I am.  No where.  So.  My note from my fat self, to my healthy, smaller self:

Erin, you got your shit together and you look amazing.  Don't be discouraged and stick with this!  You KNOW you CAN look hot, and I'm sure you do right now.  I, on the other hand, don't.  You looked so cute in the skirt in Jamaica, and deserve to wear it again!  Maybe you already are!??!  Don't fall back into your old habits.  You can't.  For Chris, for your babies that you want to have...Stay strong and keep with it!

Love, old fat Erin

And darling, just incase you forget...here are some pictures you JUST took...